Almost every author I know has
it—the feeling, deep down, that whatever success they’ve achieved in their
writing career won’t last; that the book they’re working on now will never come
together; and that their next book will never be as good as their last one.
In every book I’ve written,
there has come a time (usually late at night in the dark) when I think, “Nope. This
time I can’t pull it off. I’ve written myself into a corner. I’ll have to give
up.” Fortunately (so far), I haven’t given up. I’ve soldiered on, counting on
my unconscious, creative brain to offer suggestions, fill in plot holes, and
give me renewed hope.
January has been an encouraging
month for me—mentions on several “Best Of” or “Favorites of 2022” lists. And
then an Edgar nomination. Believe me, I’m thrilled. But that old imposter
syndrome suggests it’s all been a fluke. I’m trying hard not to listen.
If you’re plagued by the imposter
syndrome, I have some encouragement and a practical suggestion.
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Encouragement: You can pull it off. Yes, you
can. You’ve done it before. You can do it again. Stop fretting and get to work.
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Suggestion: When plot holes loom and everything
seems hopeless, make a list of possible solutions, the crazier and more
off-the-wall the better. If familiarity breeds contempt, toss out the familiar.
In my experience, desperation breeds creativity.
Have you experienced the imposter
syndrome? How do you battle against it?
Absolutely, Connie. And I do what you do—soldier on. Congrats again on your nomination!
ReplyDeleteConnie -- It happens frequently enough that I call it a friend, toast it with a glass of wine, and tell it to get the hell back to its cave.
ReplyDeleteAnd it eventually does, after it realized one glass of wine was all the attention it deserved.
Congrats on your successes!
ReplyDeleteIf I hit a real roadblock, I back out of the project & let the characters, who are always clamoring in the background, take over. They always have a solution.
Of course, I have to admit that I do have several manuscripts filed away, never to see the light of day, that just aren't that good. I consider them learning projects.
Oh, my, yes, it never goes away, does it? Love your suggestions, and Jim's.
ReplyDeleteYes, I feel that, too. But then, I focus on my work that I not only like, but know if I hadn't written it--I'd want to read it. That's confirmation for me.
ReplyDeleteOh, yes! Jim, I'm adopting your solution - win/win!
ReplyDeleteLike you, Connie, I soldier on - it's all we can do.
If I try hard enough, I'm able to feel like an imposter in almost every aspect of my life. Thank goodness I'm mostly too lazy and just let it bug me about writing.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations, Connie—I'm so very, very happy for your successes. Well-deserved, my friend!
ReplyDeleteAs for imposter syndrome, oh my, yes. I blogged about it myself not too long ago. As with an exorcism, it helps to call it out by name.
You are doing great, Connie. No worries about succeeding. I hit a major roadblock with my first book and didn't know how to solve it. I put it aside for about two weeks, and a very simple solution suddenly came to mind. If I could solve that major problem, hopefully I'll be able to do it again.
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