Casey Watkins jolted awake. A wave of pain coursed across
her brain. She winced, shut her eyes and touched her head. An angry lump bloomed
on the right side. How did she get that? As she opened her eyes to the dimness
of the small jet’s cabin, she remembered her trip home. Confused, she stared at the seat
in front of her and tried to remember. What had happened?
The company jet, going
from London to Baltimore, had been the last flight to leave on Christmas Eve
day. Only a few key people had remained onsite, and they had left with her. Something
had happened after they boarded. She gasped and clutched her chest. After the jet
had gained altitude, two men on-board brandished knives. The shock and horror
returned to her—the fight, her screams, the blood.
Pain shot through her temples. She placed her hand over her eyes, spread her fingers and massaged both temples with her thumb and ring fingers. How could that have
happened? But when she thought about boarding procedures, she understood.
Private aircraft passengers weren’t required to adhere to regular TSA pre-screening procedures or standards. Her name,
like the others taking the flight, had been checked off on the passenger
manifest after she’d cleared customs. There were no metal detectors to screen
for weapons. The terrorists' names, probably aliases, were listed on the
manifest. Their plan had been so simple and devious.
One of the terrorists had approached
her holding a knife. She remembered his raised arm and the heel of his fist
coming toward her. He must have knocked her out with the knife hilt.
Murmurings from the aisle
interrupted her discovery. Casey grabbed the seat armrests to anchor herself
against whoever approached. A terrorist? Her fingers turned white under
pressure, and she held her breath. But as the sound came closer, she heard a
distinctive voice speaking as it progressed nearer to her seat. Timidity
characterized its tone.
“Oh dear me, I’m not sure
what I should do.”
Casey exhaled. The voice
sounded like it came from some dear, wee man. She pictured an old English vicar
like those in the historical novels she read, but she remembered no one of that
description on-board. As an assistant human-resources manager, she knew everyone
on the company’s London contract and tried to associate the voice with a
person. No face or name came to mind. The terrorists had been ruthless so it
couldn’t be one of them.
When the man finally came
into view, Casey’s heart nearly stopped. She froze. In the aisle near her seat,
the Specter of Death stood, his face enshrouded by the hood of his black cape.
A scythe hung from his waist, which was belted by a gold rope. He wrung his
hands together like a worried mother.
“This wasn’t supposed to
happen,” the Specter said.
Casey felt herself pale. The
bump on her head was worse than she thought. The hallucination seemed real.
“Whatever’s wrong, dear?” he
asked. “You’re as white as a ghost.”
Casey’s eyebrows skewed at
his observation, but she made no comment. He wasn’t real, an apparition caused
by the bump on her head. Dreaming him up made her curious. Skepticism or fear, she
wondered, and narrowed her eyes. “Are you here for me?” she asked. Her voice scratched
out of her dry throat.
“What?”
Although Casey couldn’t
see the Specter’s face, the wrinkles of his cape bunched up like the facial
muscles of someone perplexed.
“Certainly not, my dear,
unless…there is this possibility…. You wouldn’t happen to know how to fly a
jet, would you?” His manner seemed droll, as if he’d asked a facetious
question.
Casey’s mouth dropped
open. She sputtered and imitated a fish until she took charge of herself. It
occurred to her that questioning her own hallucination was crazy, but she asked
anyway, “No. What happened to the crew?”
“The terrorists killed
them. But there are three other souls here with their feet at heaven’s door.
They aren’t supposed to die yet, nor you. What am I going to do?”
Casey assumed his question
was rhetorical. “What happened to the terrorists? There were also two project
managers on the jet, Ernie Hollingsworth and Jack Warner,” she said.
“Both terrorists are dead,
and not a moment too soon. Ernie Hollingsworth grabbed the captain’s gun after
he was killed and shot the two terrorists dead. But not before they nicked one
of his arteries. He’s slowly bleeding to death. Jack Warner sustained a
concussion, but he also suffered a heart attack after trying to assist the crew.
The flight attendant may have an overdose of chloroform. Her heartbeat is
erratic. I’m worried about all of them. It’s not their time.”
If the Specter spoke the
truth, then he was no apparition. She had to verify his report.
But the Specter wasn’t
finished grousing. “The captain has been a nuisance, but at least his heart is
in the right place. Those terrorists, my goodness, they were an unpleasant
twosome.” The Specter put his hands on his hips. “Do you know they accused me
of not knowing my job? The audacity. I’ve done this job since Adam’s creation.
Seems they didn’t think I was pointing them in the right direction. They
expected rewards for their satanic behavior. They actually thought they were
bound for heaven. Have you ever heard of anything so ridiculous?”
“No,” Casey said. “But we
live in a convoluted world. No one knows right from wrong nor seems to have any
common sense. My mother has said so for years.” Casey believed her words were
true, one of the many reasons that she had no need to be in charge of anything.
She had turned down a promotion offered to her by the company.
But the guy they’d hired
for the position, who was now her boss, had been hired into his level of
incompetence. Her boss had signed a lease on a too-expensive building putting
the project into financial jeopardy and then had left a week ago. He’d taken
the week before and after Christmas for his vacation without regard for the
project or the people who worked for him.
Casey rolled her eyes, but
she stopped when it made her feel dizzy. Had she been in charge, she would have
acted more responsibly. People often overestimated their abilities and, like
everyone said—especially her mother—people were promoted to their level of
incompetence, the other reason she had turned down the promotion. How could
anyone make right decisions in a world gone mad? The current situation proved
her point.
“Yes, but dear, your
mother says many things that aren’t true.”
Casey cocked her head and
drew her eyebrows down in consternation. It had never occurred to her that her
mother’s words were untrue. “But, but—.”
“Get yourself together,
dear. You have work to do. You must step up to reach your full potential.
Really, you’ve been a slacker.”
Casey’s jaw dropped.
The Specter stepped back in
the aisle and pointed to the front of the plane. He made a sweeping gesture
with his arms, the sleeves of his black robe billowing out, and ushered her from
the seat. “Lucky for me that you’re here. I can’t affect the real world, but
you can. If you only would, that is.”
Shocked, Casey paused at
his unexpected and snarky editorial. What did he expect? Surely he knew that
flying a jet required a professional.
When she stood, black spots
appeared before her eyes. She placed her hands on the seat in front of her own,
pausing to acclimate herself to the jet’s motion. Her head cleared, as did her
vision. Four bodies lay on the cabin floor between the seats and the cockpit
door.
Shuffling from her seat to
the aisle, she stepped forward and tiptoed to the fore cabin. To her left, the
dead terrorists’ bodies were sprawled against front seats. To her right lay
Ernie and Jack, flat on their backs. Ernie was covered in blood leaking from
his neck. Casey touched his arm, and he moaned. She turned to Jack, who had
less blood covering him, but he was comatose.
“Quickly now, Casey. You
can’t do anything for them. Get the jet to Baltimore so they can get medical
care. Come now, into the cockpit. Hurry.” He motioned toward the cockpit door.
“Where’s the flight
attendant?”
“She’s sitting in the rear.
Don’t bother to check on her. There is nothing you can do to help her. You’re
dithering. The sooner they get to Baltimore, the better.” Although the Specter
had spoken from behind her, he suddenly appeared before her at the cockpit’s door,
melted through it and disappeared.
Casey felt the jet
shudder, as if it were losing speed or altitude. Her stomach lurched. She grabbed
the doorframe and clenched her jaws together so her teeth wouldn’t chatter. Her
stomach churned with foreboding.
She thrust-open the
cockpit door. Blue sky greeted her through the front window. No one sat in the
pilots’ seats. Three crewmembers lay on the cabin’s floor. She quickly bent
down and checked the officers’ pulses. All of them were dead.
Casey stood. From blue sky
in front, she turned to look down the aisle to the rear of the passenger cabin.
She was on a jet maybe 32, 000 feet up over the Atlantic Ocean—without help—and
she had no idea how to fly.
The trembling started in
her chest and radiated out to her extremities. When her knees buckled, she fell
on the pilot’s seat backrest. She maneuvered around the console instruments and
dropped into the seat. She looked out the window into the blue beyond. Mesmerized
by the clouds flying toward her face, her mind emptied—too petrified to think—except
for one question. Where was the Specter of Death now? She wasn’t sure if his
presence was a comfort or an omen. But then, he appeared at her side.
“I don’t know how you’re
going to fly the plane, but you must,” the Specter said.
Casey stared at him in
disbelief. “And how am I supposed to do that?”
“I don’t know, dear. None
of these people are scheduled to die so something must happen.”
“Yeah, right. Sure.
Something’s going to happen.” Casey shook her head and ignored him. The blue
sky seemed infinite—to heaven and beyond—the irony bit her. She had played it
safe, kept her head down, didn’t take chances and where had that gotten her?
Her abdominal muscles were clenched so hard she wondered if her ribs would break.
Curling into a ball and disappearing seemed like her best option. She closed
her eyes.
“Casey, you can’t just
give up.”
The Specter sounded like
an old nag, but then she heard something else. Her shoulders rose around her
neck. Had the terrorists survived? She hadn’t forced herself to check, having
been reassured by the Specter of their deaths. The sound turned into a moan
close to her, as if coming from one of the crew. She whipped around to look at
the bodies on the floor behind her. The bodies remained motionless. But the
moaning increased in volume filling the cabin. She covered her ears with her
hands to block the horrible sound.
“What’s that?” she asked
the Specter, but he had disappeared.
Casey slid off the seat
and knelt on the cabin floor. She looked around the cabin’s walls and sought
the sound’s source. The radio? But the sound didn’t come in the direction of
the control panel. She looked at the crews’ bodies.
A tiny light sparkled from
the chest of the captain. It grew into a dark plume over his chest, expanded
into a six-foot-high cloud centered by a red pulsing dot. Casey blinked. Her
vision was clear, but she wondered if she were hallucinating again.
The cloud formed into the
shape of the captain. His uniform appeared and changed into navy blue like the
one clothing the body on the floor. His facial features formed, as did hands
from the sleeves of his jacket. The hands clenched into fists. Her eyes
traveled from his hands to his face. Blue eyes bored into hers with an
intensity that made her shrink away from him.
“Damn it!” he said.
Casey’s mouth opened, but no
words came out.
“I can’t believe this.” The
captain flung his hands out as if exasperated. As his form continued to solidify,
Casey saw his name “Jason Stuebin” embroidered in gold on the front of his
jacket. He floated to one side of the plane to the other. Then, he drifted toward
the window and retraced his path toward the cabin door as if checking the
perimeter. But he stopped by the door, facing her. “Can you believe this?”
“No, I can’t,” Casey said.
“It’s too horrible to believe.”
“I have to save these
people.” The lines between his eyes deepened. “I blew it in every way I could.”
He looked away. “I was the only one with a gun. I hesitated. I’ve never killed
anyone before. I buckled. It’s my fault.”
The Specter of Death
appeared by the captain’s side. “When you refused to go to heaven…it never
occurred to me. Are you an emissary?”
“A what?” The captain’s jaw went slack. He raised his eyebrows. “I’m a
pilot, and I’m flying this jet to Baltimore. These people need help.” He sat
down in his seat at the controls.
“Oh dear,” the Specter
said to Casey. He held out his arms as if imploring her to intervene.
“Oh yeah, right,” Casey
said, looking up from the floor.
“But he’s such a new
spirit, he doesn’t understand his limitations.” The Specter put his hands on
his hips. “Unlike you.” His gesture seemed like an accusation. Where his mouth
would have been his cape bunched to form a disgusted expression.
Casey noticed that the
captain wasn’t listening to them. Focused on flying the plane, his hands moved
in sequence, as if he were enacting a routine he could mime without thought, and
he stared out the front window. Except that his hands never moved any of the
controls. The levers and knobs remained motionless at his touch. His hands were
of no substance. He didn’t notice.
Leaning against his seat,
Casey asked, “Is the jet descending?”
“Yeah. Have to maintain
altitude or we could collide with other craft. The GPWS is about to go off.”
“What’s that?”
“Ground Proximity Warning
System.”
Casey gasped, and then
squeaked out, “We’re about to hit the water?”
“No, anytime we lose
altitude quickly, it will go off. We’re still about five hundred miles from
Baltimore, but we’re endangering other lives by not maintaining altitude. We
weren’t scheduled to land for another hour, but I’m increasing our speed. We
have the fuel.”
“Did you let anyone know
about the terrorists?”
“No time.”
“As you can see, Casey,
this isn’t working,” the Specter said. “You have to fly the jet.”
“I can’t do it.” Casey
raised her voice and jumped to a stand.
“Then you die and take
these people with you.”
“Would you guys shut up,
I’m trying to concentrate,” the captain said.
Casey faced the Specter, her
arms folded against her chest. She swallowed. His cape folds still reflected
his disgust with her, causing her to ask the captain, “Could I help you?” To
the Specter, she whispered, “Like this is really going to work.”
“Don’t know until you try,
Missy,” the Specter said.
The captain turned toward
Casey. His one glance told her that he thought she was crazy. “If you want to
learn to fly, try a Piper first, at a local airport, not near an international
airport the size of BWI. Okay?”
She gritted her teeth.
Anger mounted in her chest. First, the Specter goaded her to fly, then the
captain ridiculed her for offering to help. Were all spirits so exasperating? “I
don’t think we have a choice,” she said.
He frowned. “How about I
fly the jet?”
“Be great if you were
actually doing it.”
“I am flying.”
“No, you’re not.”
He looked at the controls,
tried to make adjustments and looked incredulous as the controls failed to
respond to his movements. “What the hell?” he said, as his hands thrashed
through the control panel. “Something’s wrong. We must have sustained damaged.
Maybe a bullet shot into the electronics.”
Casey leaned toward him. “Captain,”
she said, faltering. “You sustained the damage. You’re a spirit. You can’t move
the controls. Look down at your hands.”
He looked at his hands as
he tried and failed to move the controls.
Could he see their
transparency? “Maybe I can fly if you tell me how. I can’t without you,” Casey
said, inhaling at the reality in her words. The passengers and her own survival
depended on her—flying the plane. She closed her eyes for a moment and pleaded
with God to help her. Then, she pointed to the captain’s body.
The
captain’s eyes followed her finger. He stared at his body, but then he turned
to her. “But these people were my responsibility. I have to get them to
Baltimore safely.”
“If you give me
instructions to fly the jet, we can get everyone back to Baltimore. If you
don’t help me, I’ll die too. I can’t do it by myself.”
His gaze penetrated all
the way to her soul. He seemed to grasp reality in that moment. His death
became real. “Of course. You were in my charge.” He stopped trying to fly,
floated out of the seat and went behind her. “Get into the seat. I’ll tell you
what to do.”
Casey swallowed, bit her
lips as she lowered herself into the seat and gazed at the controls, which appeared
to be as complicated as the NASA flight command center she’d seen on TV.
“Okay, first we have to return
to our planned altitude. Put your hand on this lever and gently pull down,” the
captain said.
Casey did as she was told,
but the plane shot upward thrusting her into the seat. She screamed.
“It’s okay,” he said, in a
calm and steady voice. “You pushed it too far. Just push it a little in the
opposite direction.”
“I’m shaking too much. I’m
afraid I’ll put the plane in a spin.”
“Maybe I can guide you.
Here, I’ll put my hand on yours. Can you feel my hand?”
“Yes, I can feel it.” She
failed to tell him how cold his hand felt.
“Okay, now feel me push it
forward.”
Casey imitated his hand
movement. The jet’s angle decreased. It went up, but not at as steep of an
angle.
“The good thing is that
you took us back up to our altitude really fast. You okay?”
“Yes.” She was unsure of
her affirmation, but she knew there was no alternative.
“Flip this switch,” he
said while pointing at the controls. “We’ll cruise on automatic pilot for a
while.”
She did as she was told
and flipped the switch.
“When we approach
Baltimore, I’ll want you to radio the tower and let them know what happened.
Let them know that you’re a total novice. They’ll have emergency crews ready
for your landing. But don’t worry. You won’t need their services. I’ll get you
down.”
“Thanks,” Casey said, but
she imagined the worst-case scenario.
The Specter appeared by
her side and smiled. “I told you so.”
“Oh, shut up.” Casey said.
“I didn’t think I’d have help.”
“Ye of little faith.”
“I don’t have a crystal
ball, you know.”
“No one does, dear. You
must have faith.”
“But what if I make
mistakes. I could crash this plane. It would be my fault then.”
“Not trying makes no
sense. The jet would crash without you. But with you, there’s a chance you’ll
succeed.”
The captain addressed the
Specter, “If you don’t mind, we have work to do.”
“Of course,” the Spector
said and disappeared.
“What’s your name?” the
captain asked.
“Casey.”
“I’m Jason. If you don’t
mind, I’ll ride in the seat with you. It’s easier than leaning over. It also will
be more accurate to steer and control the plane that way.”
As he slipped into the
seat, a deep chill descended on Casey. She started to shiver.
“Maybe a blanket will keep
you warm.” He floated out of the seat, but then he doubled back. “There’s a
blanket on the shelf over here. Guess I won’t be able to bring it to you.”
Casey retrieved the
blanket, wrapped it around her body and returned to the seat. When Jason
occupied her space, this time the cold didn’t bother her as much.
“So what’s his problem?”
Jason asked.
“He called me a slacker.
Told me my mother had lied to me.”
“How are you a slacker?”
“Don’t know, unless he
means that I turned down a promotion at work.”
“Why would you do that?”
Casey thought about the
question. She formulated responses, but she had to admit that it came down to
one thing. “I guess I’m afraid.”
“Of what?”
“That I won’t be good
enough, that I’ll make wrong decisions, that I’ll be held responsible.”
“But if you don’t try,
you’ll never know.”
“Yes, but isn’t that
better than failing?”
“No. When you fail, you
learn. Then, you can improve until you get it right. You should have seen my
first landing. I bounced the plane.”
“Yes, and everyone saw you
do it and ridiculed you.”
“No, but then I also made
fun of myself. Better to beat people to the punch. The instructor said it
wasn’t a bad first attempt. Look, Casey—there are always going to be people with
greater and lesser abilities than yourself. If people want to sit around and
judge, that’s their problem.”
“But I don’t want to look
foolish.”
“And what do you think people
would say if the plane crashed, and they found your body in the passenger
cabin? They could determine how you died, and if they knew you just sat there,
without trying, they’d probably think you were a loser. Maybe even deserved
your fate.”
Tears formed in Casey’s
eyes. She felt damned no matter what she did. “Maybe. It’s hard. Mom’s so
critical. I feel as if I have to be perfect, and I know that isn’t a
possibility so I’m defeated before I begin.”
“How old are you?”
“Twenty-eight.”
“Do you think it might be
time to get away from your mother?”
“Living with her has saved
me a lot of money.”
“But at what cost? If you
accepted a promotion, you’d get a raise. You need to surround yourself with
more positive people. People of faith.”
“Maybe.” Casey sniffed
tears that were forming. Could her mother have no faith?
“You ready to radio
Baltimore?”
“We’re there already?” Her
arms started shaking. What if she failed?
“Within fifteen minutes.”
As if he could sense her feelings, he said, “The only thing to fear—”
Casey finished his
sentence, “Is fear itself.” How many times had she said that quote to herself
and failed to heed its advice? She steeled her core muscles. There was no place
to duck and hide. “Okay Jason, show me how.”
Jason explained how to work the radio. Casey pushed a button to talk. She told the controller of her situation. Then, as Jason instructed, she set the radio to speaker. The controller handed her off to a pilot in the tower who guided her into descent and landing. She barely listened to the pilot’s radioed instructions as he followed her descent on radar. She concentrated on following Jason’s movements.
Sweat streamed down her
arms as the jet descended. “I’m going to crash.”
“You’re fine. The angle is
just right.”
“But it looks like the
nose of the plane will hit the runway.”
“We’ll level off before we
land. Now lower this lever.”
Casey followed his
instruction and felt the landing gear lock into position.
“We’re going to slow the
jet down.” The decrease in power caused the nose to rise.
“Oh, that’s great. I don’t feel like we’ll
nosedive,” Casey said. He showed her how to extend the flaps and trim the plane
for landing. Just before they touched down, Jason’s hands illustrated how she
needed to level the plane. When the wheels touched, he guided her to reverse
the engines and apply the brakes.
Casey concentrated on
Jason’s movements, doing exactly as told. They landed the jet in a textbook
fashion. When the jet stopped on the runway, she let out a sigh of relief, gave
thanks to God for lending her Jason and heard cheers over the radio. From the
view out the window, she saw fire engines, police and rescue vehicles barrel
down the runway toward the jet. She climbed out of the seat around the controls
and stood. Her body felt limp, like a wet noodle boiled too long.
“You okay?” Jason asked.
“I guess.”
“You just landed a jet and
saved lives. You’re not happy?”
“The Specter was right
about me.”
“But you can change that, you’ve
given yourself the opportunity.”
“Without you, I wouldn’t
have had a chance.”
Jason’s eyes glanced at
the window. “You’ll get a hero’s welcome. Prepare yourself for the cameras.”
Casey’s mouth dropped
open. Her eyes popped wide. She saw all the people approaching the jet. “No.”
“Maybe it will shut your
mother’s mouth. There will be no denying what you did and what you are capable
of doing once you put your mind to it. But do me three favors.”
“What?”
Jason held up one finger. “Don’t
tell anyone about me or they’ll think that you’re crazy. Be gracious, accept
their compliments. He held up a second finger. The next time you’re offered a
promotion, don’t turn it down.”
Casey smiled. “No problem.
I can do my boss’s job better than he can.” Tears formed in her eyes. “I’m
sorry about what happened to you. But you completed your mission—you saved us.”
His eyes softened. “So am
I, it was a good life, but I only helped you.”
“So what’s the other
favor?”
“When the Specter of Death
comes to visit next time, tell him off.”
“But he was right.”
“Yes, but then he wasn’t
very confident in himself either. All he did was wring his hands and fuss at
you to do all the work.”
Casey laughed. “Yes. I
don’t think I’ll fear him very much, and maybe I will tell him off.”
“Live a brave life, Casey.
Merry Christmas,” Jason said and disappeared.
Casey heard banging on the
exterior door. She knew when she opened it her life would change—for the
better. “Merry Christmas, Jason, and thanks,” she whispered, but then she put
her hands on her hips. “Merry Christmas to you too, Specter.” And then, she opened
the door.